Incompletist

It's all a bit sketchy don't you know what with the RMS and all. 
Formal education and I didn't work out but I was on my way across the country to fulfill my own peculiar
and
particular manifest destiny which at the time (at the time)? was a semi - conscious state of befuddled uncertainty laced with a lack of pragmatics that was nothing short of utter ineptitude. 

(Oh essential humor I laugh to myself now at the notion of then going clear across the country to maintain my standards and my continuous quest for success in failure).

We arrived at the train station and said our goodbyes. 

After you left there was a welling and a filling and at the same time a depletion of air. 
I rushed outside after a constricted couple of minutes to tell you something but you were gone.

I was consistently lacking in effort
and all done and said
pretty consistent in afraid.

I do at times wish that I had more of more
than all this less though
but the wish won't make it so

At a certain point, I guess, we got
uncomfortable around each other. 

I'm glad, though, that I said what I said before you went. 
I will add now that I am sorry I made you nervous.

As I think back right at the now of this
now

I was at a loss

then

and still am

so I'll leave it

at that.
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