In the Past

In the past… Mingled with joy and hope, There is pain, confusion and doubt Dread that breathes mystery, Melancholy and fear – anxiety Expressions of a moment When darkness followed so near In the past… Where silent tears Fade into the whispers Breathless waves of conviction, Hesitation – uncertainty That questions even the best Dreams, the most promising wishes With suspicions, skepticism – Mistrust that abides in the heart In the past… Uneasy feelings rained clouds Billows of worry, veils of fury Aching to destroy aspirations, plans Suck out the optimism and faith With phobias and frosty smoke, shadows Erasing all the joy and wonder The hope for a life filled with promise In the past… There was dread – despair But now… after all these years, I can honestly search through the problems Find inspirations amid the melancholic See elation shimmering in the hazy horizons Feel the laughter stirred to life inside a soul Who knows the miracle of letting go Moving on… seeing the past for what it was, A milestone, a landmark, a sign… Pointing toward the present day, Where I ventured - and chose to stay In the past… there was pain But, now, in this moment… There is reassurance and grace, There is the miracle of blessings Poured out on this life, this place… Where I knew strife, but now know The brilliance of a fresh new light… A energy and excitement that comes to one Who believes and trusts – His love A sign from above… That the past has gone And I can keep moving on!