In Pain

I haven't told you that I love you, and I still do. I haven't told you that I dreamt to be with you, still hoping too. Haven't told you that I care for you, but I know you will never know. These are just all in my heart. Hide, kept, buried till my heartbeat stops... even my breath won't reveal the secret of my repressed desires... Was I to blame when our love to sprout didn't bloom? Where my words and actions hold your heart's expressions? Why so easily discourage and choose to step back? When my heart's only want is to know if your love can hold on so tight. Your choice to surrender afflict me so much pain, Where my world torn apart and put it into flame, And there are crimson, twilight, dusk and also dawn, Forsaken the day till it has forgotten, light was unknown... And now its just solitude and abyss in my room. Was I not worthy of your love? Halt of passion, misty and obscure Bygone, by past, dead, defunct And so I lift it to time to heal in act But destiny calls as my desires to forget To meet a man whom will be my forever dearest.