In my head

In my head I cant help the things I have done I can't take it back but I do regret what I said You see this from the perspective of your world But thats not applicable cause I ain't there It' is not the darkness that scares me The days are ok when I get out of bed Maybe one day I can make you see I'm not coming at you im just in my head I believe it when people say I'm better off dead And I rather die then take medication It makes me something I'm not or nothing at all If that's what the doctor would suggest know I said It not for me im not a runner no sedation If you can hear my voice can you feel my words It's not easy to convey my soul But its something I really need to show Please don't use it to take control I have been a million places all that has been what lead Me to the reasoning of my interpretation Of any and and all situations So see my logic flawed it's not you I'm just in my head