In Heaven Or In Hell

Sometimes, I sit and stare the wall Sometimes, that name I just call The name I was too fond to listen In my eyes, the name just glistened The name of the person, I could die for The name of the person, I could cry for The name which had many memories attached I never wondered, this soon they would dispatch The memories of me, laughing and crying The memories of me, running and joying The memories of those arms, having me sleep The memories of those shoulders, having me weep These memories make me depressed These memories make me stressed I cry and cry, all day all night I know, it can never be alright All words, for the name to be described, are less My heart has sunken into the lake of sorrowfulness That name is a precious gem for me I didn't knew that person would, so soon, flee I try and try, to ease the pain A fallen effort of no gain My mind is in a wandering state I can't leave it on my fate My feelings are a hidden mess, which can't be expressed These feelings, hurt me and make me depressed That name, I just think a nd cry That name, makes me feel, I wanna die I try harder and harder, to keep myself busy The depression inside me, makes me feel dizzy That name, keeps on popping up in my head That name, makes me feel to be sooner dead I wish that person had never died For whom, all these years, I have cried He took away, my happiness with him Making my life, all blur and dim He was my only joy and love He flew away so fast like a dove I wish to meet him sooner again In heaven or in hell, with happiness or pain My feelings are like those eyes With corpse in front, and tear of cries My heart is like that toy Given all the pain, with the name of joy I'm caged up in these imaginary bars That person is the only thing, I wish from the falling stars I want to be with him sooner again In heaven or in hell, with happiness or pain I wish to meet him sooner again To tell him all my worries and pain And again our friendship we will mend In a world which will never end...... :-Aleema Siddiqui