In An Instance I'm Gone

In an instance I am gone It is replayed on a loop Mostly for family Sometimes for friends Definitely for exes It is not always personal It's random But sometimes it feels urgent To avoid pain Even though pain is inevitable It is something I can't outrun But I still feel liberated Absent from atonement I only fear for the future That I will be standing alone Perhaps standing alone is for my sanity Some may disavow Still I love And still I disappear With unwavering loyalty I hope you take me with openness I hope your memories nurses Because in an instance I am gone