Impending

this hot knife that stabs me through returns each day to remind me it's true it twists to increase the pain i hide a wave of panic strikes me... because i lied my stomach knots up and my eyes again tear the time has come to face years of fear it's because of my love and the respect i feel i can't bury this or pretend it's not real i'm scared and i'm shamed of this person you don't know but to reveal this truth is the only way to grow. my muscles are paralyzed my heads all a mess just, please, keep saying i'm doing whats best