I'M Sorry I Killed You

I saw your body laying purple and covered with makeup skill it looked like you might jump awake however, I'd never seen you so still. We were just on the phone I told you no chance to break my heart you took the ultimate decision and ended your life no future children, no future friends, family, or wife you gave up everything with me on your mind to leave me feeling like a murderer in a crime. People tell me that it's not my fault you know I don't believe them I know you know I'm taking responsibility because it's what I've always done I've stuck by your side, through drug attempts and dangerous flights but I never gave up on you I never shut out the lights. The one time I did, You ended it all so tell me, world, how is this not my fault? I remembered last week when we were laughing over life no one is laughing now it's as silent as your body laid.