Im Sorry

I have come to realise, What a coward I've been. Overwhelmed by the hype, And poverty life, That has slowly beaten me down. I should have listened. And I never should have said those things. I'm sorry. I was flicking back, Through snapshots in my mind, Trying to find a time, I was happy. I was shocked to find, At the back of my mind, The people I left behind. And I'm sorry. I became dismissive. Fake smiles and frowny face looks, Were allies of mine. They replaced all of you. Your originality and quirks. I swapped late night talks, For cheap shoes and oodles and noodles. Leaving the life of fame glory For a life of love and poverty And I'm sorry. I will not leave what I have now but I want to add you into it. Call this my second attempt, At being a better person. But I yearn for happiness, And crave affection, Just like I always did. This is my confession, A chance at redemption, And I'm sorry. My hypocrisy is a talent. I cannot say anything, To justify my actions, And callous words. Blinded by petty drama, And fashion disasters. Selfish doesn't come close, And sorry isn't good enough.