I'M Okay

Every single second, I just reallly want to shout, To isolate myself and take the easy way out. I feel all the time like a big failure of a guy, Like absolutely nobody will care if I just die... Another tear drops down to the floor, Yet nobody even thinks of knocking on my locked door. They don't know how much I suffer, and nobody will ever understand Why do I want so much for everything to just end... Getting up from my chair and unfolding the knife, Once again I am thinking of taking my own life. However, something out there, I don't know what, Stops me from finally putting the last dot. Maybe it's the promise to my best friend, that I'd never let go, Or maybe it's the one who I loved, even though she said no? I have no clue, yet still I put the blade away And continue the fight, pretending I'm okay.