I'M Okay

Every single second, I just reallly want to shout,
To isolate myself and take the easy way out.
I feel all the time like a big failure of a guy,
Like absolutely nobody will care if I just die...

Another tear drops down to the floor,
Yet nobody even thinks of knocking on my locked door.
They don't know how much I suffer, and nobody will ever understand
Why do I want so much for everything to just end...

Getting up from my chair and unfolding the knife,
Once again I am thinking of taking my own life.
However, something out there, I don't know what,
Stops me from finally putting the last dot.

Maybe it's the promise to my best friend, that I'd never let go,
Or maybe it's the one who I loved, even though she said no?
I have no clue, yet still I put the blade away
And continue the fight, pretending I'm okay.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2016

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September 24, 2016 at 9:32 AM
Disturbing! If I were you, I'd focus on my writing. You seem to have an abundance of talent. Exploit the gifts you were given. Who knows? You might wind up rich and famous. Success is revenge for a lot of people. If that's what motivates you, go with it! Keep posting!
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