I'M Not In Love

I got poison in my veins Suicidal thoughts flows in my mind Hate in my heart My fate Is near death My souls are bad Love don't exist I'm not in love My heart aches My body collapse Girls dump me Girls hate me Girls say my fate is hopeless I bleed to death in my Suicidal mind. My growing pains breaks my poison veins as I'm dying for love. I use to thought that I was in love. but I'm not in love. The pain aches and kills me inside when a girl rejects me. The crushes are just fantasies Girls come and go like hoes. What can I say I'm not in love. I wonder why What am I'm going through Why I'm falling for non existing love. What am I'm going to do Lonely songs depresses my emotions. Finding a girl stresses my heart My love expressions goes blank into delusion. My sleep can't feel love and romance near. My deep thoughts of mind flows my eyes with a lot of sad tears when love and romance collapses into my non existence in my eternal so called real existence. Am I a lose for love? Am I corny for love? Am I sprung for love? Am I a bum for love? Do I got it bad for love? Why I'm not in love? My answer is I'm not in love and I can't