I'M Not Crazy Over Your Goodbyes

I'm not crazy over goodbyes, so get lost, negativity from another source I fell away and fell for your lies - I was vulnerable and naïve of course I'm not under your spell anymore, so quit playing games with me like a child, being obnoxious and bored I dwell in dismay's well today and my screams are ignored as the rainfall of my yesterday sorrow poured I'm caught in the middle of the crowd and I'm feeling rather bored Pushed to the side, an unsolved riddle and a misplayed chord I'm the night owl, soaring silently amongst rowdy, talkative birds Hushed with meekness and a serene spirit with well-selected words I wish I had the strength and energy to make excessive progress in this busy hive of a life I am somewhat getting over my past anguish and I am no longer hooking up with strife I swish swosh through the smelly, yet shallow swamp and reach an island that has a precious meadow I wish you would stop being in my wilderness-dark muse and dismiss you as a worthless, odd shadow I'm not crazy over your goodbyes, but I keep myself occupied with racing thoughts of taintless tranquility I'm giving you another chance if you would try to deserve it by treating me less like a dirty sock in the pile of laundry I am weighed down by gravity once again and I haven't a clue what to do - clearly, certainty is a mighty must I'm not crazy over your quick and easy hello's, so don't bother to gain my trust that's been left in the dust You didn't even look my way when I tried to speak to you thoughtfully You always assume the worst in me and that kills me inside, you see? Don't you dare repeat your bittersweet, spiteful goodbyes You left me in the dark of my lonely, lamentful cries Maybe, someday, someone will rescue me from my depression...my tension... Possibly, tomorrow, somebody will hear me out and give me their full attention Farewell to your goodbyes and reach out to me when I need your help and direction It's so swell when you believe in me, but especially towards yourself with affection I'm not crazy, just a little human My nature is of a helpless man I'm not insane or normal as you want me to be I can be who I want to be - I think I can be free I'm not crazy, just a little human My traits are like an unique van Excuse me, I'm definitely not a wickedly bizarre guy or an unpredictable, yet unsuitable melody I can think things through and make a difference in my decision-making, so thanks a lot for your opinions of harsh bravery You deserted me in my world of wistful wretchedness You ran away from my reach and left me in the wilderness The forest is but a freezing fire to my quaking, solace-lacking body I'm not crazy, but a human being that needs love just like everybody I have been looking for you Looking for you In the covers of our love I have been searching for you Searching for you But you're too up above Your goodbyes are beating drums in my overly-eager ears Your cute and sweet lies leave me with trails of tears Your goodbyes are repeating in my mad brain Your goodbyes are train tracks minus the train