I'M Lost

I’m Lost As I sit here in silence I try to diffuse the thoughts of violence. Contemplating my fait, Weighing the pros and cons Realizing all happiness seems to be gone. Only a feeling of being anxious remains, I take it and hold it because there is no one else to blame. Suffering in darkness cold and alone, Walking but stranded; unable to find home. Insecure and out of place, There are parts of me that are lost, Like orbs, in outer space. Frantically searching for them, I sift through the un necessary, Trying to be strong and move on But it’s almost too much to carry. So here I lye feeling buried alive. Gasping for air I’ll likely never get. A feeling of being covered in gas, Watching the horror as the flames get lit. And i'm just gone. Never seen. Then I wake up from this crazy dream. It’s back to reality. So I get dressed, walk outside, look up at the sun and realize what I’ve become….. I’m still working on her…… :)