I'M Done Living

I died, For a few moment, Then I got revived— I wonder why? C P R Ambulance, Paramedics Open heart bypass surgery, Echo Scan MRI Cardiac rehab Now I live again… I don’t know why? Dying was easy… One moment I was alive, The very next, Poof ! Gone!! It was pure bliss Unaware I was dead. They say all their prayers worked. I was lucky It was a miracle. God has a purpose for making me live again … But who wanted to live any longer. Being dead is better than dying of old age. The hustle and bustle of life will not change The brouhaha is never gonna end, What I’m gonna do more now that I didn’t do in the past 70 years— So why bother living anymore, It will be same o, same o. There’s no lure of life left No longing for living, Life now lacks luster holds no lust, no laughter, Just lingering on in a limbo. Now, death lurks in the shadows with a smug little smile. I was ready; it was my time. Now I wonder when is my opportune moment, I am tethered to life, No longer free, Bogged down under pressure to prove that it was all worth it. When a new day dawns and a shimmering sun came looking for me, It will be alright if it finds me nowhere! ~06/08/19 ~Contest: Best Free Verse 2019 ~Sponsor: John Hamilton