Illuminated Darkness

I feel a cold wind when I'm awake But can't sleep because of all the heartache And pain I've caused knowing it's not right But still I continue and continue to fight Searching for someone who will turn on the light Screaming for help knowing no one is there Cherishing the trust and the love I once shared For anyone living and giving me the chance to shine Seeing all but still feeling blind Because of the darkness in my mind Through this tunnel of darkness I see A blurred picture of prosperity Even though I barley see me I clearly see the surrounding And yet the meaning of this picture has not come to me But if I could just step outside my comfort zone Knowing that I can't do this alone So I get the Man upstairs on the phone Praying and hoping that He's home He picks up and I cry Lord oh God please hear my prayer I already promised to let you come downstairs I said you come inside and my body we'll share Hello....God are you still there? Illuminate my darkness so your light can shine Take over my body my soul and my mind I'm yours Lord And I'm for real this time