I'Ll Get Better

I'm getting deeper and deeper into a mental maze, I can't cope no more pls make it end I'm counting the days, Did my thoughts happen or not was they real, My mind keeps tricking me, depression is all I feel, Always wanted to be normal and happy settled with kids and wife, The voices have made me 12 times try end my life, I lost my best mate and brother I feel so alone, He would put me right and listen to me moan, Why did God take him he should have took me, Everytime I close my eyes its my brother I see, Wish i could wake up one day and think of just 1 thing at a time, I'm working out tomorrow the day after and next week while I'm writing this rhyme, I'm hurting people close even tho I ain't a bad person, When I realise what I've said my feelings worsen, It can't go on for ever its got to stop, I'll try harder for you jase and get back on top. Your friend matty d :) xx