If You Had Wanted Me

If You Had Wanted Me! Life would have been so different had you wanted me. All I ever wanted was you and I wanted even needed you to want and need me too. I kept praying you would see how much I loved, wanted, and needed you! There was nothing I wouldn’t do for you or with you. If you had wanted me our circumstances would have been so different. Lovers and best friends I have no doubt. My cravings for you would have been understood and reciprocated. Fantasies shared and secrets told between best friends sharing laughter is how it would have been if you had wanted me! You, my soul mate lost to me. I wonder as I dream about you, why things turned out the way they did. My heart belongs to you; however, is now guarded knowing you never wanted me but settled for some reason unknown to me. I know not why you choose to be with me when you did not want me. I thought we had it all. Broken and torn apart afraid to trust or love I have settled too, as you my love are the only one for me! Oh, if you had wanted me. Alone and crying I pray, asking for relief from this loveless life. Is it too much to be wanted? My pain is so deep and my tears flow inside shut off from the world. If you had wanted me things would have been so different. I would be smiling on the inside and laughter would fill the air because I would have your love! Walls would be down and never would I need to be guarded because my heart would be safe had you wanted me. Debbie Knapp 06/03/2013