If Tomorrow Is Truely News
I can’t do
Anything
without you
There’s nothing
I can do
without you
I know you think I’m me
But I’ve been pretending to be
Opened the door
Before I knew you were leaving
My first foster mother and adopted brother
It’s a world of harsh reality
Left it to my feet to discover
“Trust no one”
Especially if snakes don’t speak
“You don’t even utter”
No cold cuts, no bread, only peanut butter
Maybe a taste of honey on days we couldn’t play
Child hood was just not sunny
Hated church
The pastor and anything biblical that lurked
Hated photos
No cheese, no smile, not even a smirk
Held my pillow to my face and refused to breathe
At the time life could do nothing but hurt
Never fell in love
Not a passionate flirt
Family visits and various social workers
“Please I’m not going to hurt you”
Never mind the damage has been done
Never could revamp the fun
Grew grim, my soul got bleached in the sun
Nine years old and I just want to see mom
A friend , a single compassionate face
Bitterly my beloved tears taste
Not born of a supreme race
Days I’d go without toothpaste
The struggles I’ve over come
The scars you can’t see
The image you love
I can no longer be
I worthless, I get it
I’m poor and things are getting no better
But I haven’t misspelled a word in this letter
Worth nothing more than soiled rags
But I did it, I made it to 22
Without hustling, drugs, or getting tagged
My tears in your basket, that’s all I had
No property value
“smoke marijuana” get out of here
Cant let these detectives and there ideal logy foul you
She’s a pretty girl but I can’t give her the world
Maybe a cold drink and a romance that won’t sink
Hold on to that, I’d miss you if I blinked
I changed my life at twelve
Put yesterday on the shelf
And held on to myself
I have no identity
I’m made up of what I learned from others
No mother, no father
I shouldn’t have made it any further
I can’t do
Anything
without you
There’s nothing
I can do
without you
Copyright © Jerry Golden | Year Posted 2009
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