If Only...

If I could but do things all over again, retrace my steps back to where I started, I would do things quite differently. I shouldn’t have… idiotically fallen for your innocent exterior, blind to the evil lurking deep in your soul. let myself be hypnotized by sensuality that hid your latent, calculating cruelty. splurged like a love-starved teenager, giving my all to a shameless gold digger. loved you and let you turn this shell of a man into a total wreck now devoid of self-respect. left the comforting embrace of hearth and family, seduced by your faithless assassin charm. I should have… listened to my conscience whispering, imploring me not to be swayed by the allure of the flesh. used my common sense, my brain, not my loins, to turn back the power of your magical spell. been content with my good woman’s love, dispelling lust and the folly of my ways. crushed you before getting myself entangled within your web of deceit and false promises. It's cold out here in the street, no roof over my head, shivering, trembling, on this wind-swept evening. If only I could do things all over again... God, if only I could.