If only

If only I knew What all this would do I never meant To be broke and bent I try and try But its never enough And just like that I call their bluff Im broken and hurt Blown off like dirt But I hide away The emotions I face As if put on a hidden display And the only one who will ever see Is me My heart is shattered My brain is dead But secretly I pray and I hope That maybe this slope Will come to an end Maybe one day my heart will mend But the scars still remain And so does the pain I whisper my fears But no one can hear So now Im trapped in a cycle Of blood, hurt, and tears.