Eric Urbas Poet I do not know?

If Only...

I know I should be happy,
but I am sad.
I should be proud,
but I am ashamed. 

I went to see everyone,
I hold dear,
and was afraid to talk.
Trying to get close,
but felt like repealed back.

That circle I hate,
when there is no spot for me.
Why do I coke up.
Does people see me?
Or am I hiding myself,
in this mist of doubt,
and sorrow.

Want to be a part,
but never really learned,
to be a part.
Always alone on those Saturdays,
watching everyone else,
have their fun day.

Guess I'm so used
to be alone.
That when some people come,
I move myself away.

I am disgusted about myself,
of my actions today,
and me, myself couldn't bring,
you guys to my home.

If only I could be there,
in that circle.
If only I could be part,
of something big.
If only I could be,
loved.
If only I could be,
Myself.
If only...

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Jasmine Murphy June 17, 2010 at 6:11 PM Eric u no u are always going to be a part of the circle of life. u just have to fit yourself in that little wedge were ther is a conversation waiting to happen. i can understand were your coming from in all of your poems and ive been ther done it b4. u just gotta wedge urself in that circle:)) i always her 4 u!!!!

Debbie Guzzi July 28, 2009 at 6:31 AM You can and are yourself... a human being..not a human doing...Here's some help. Line 9 repelled Line 12 choke Line 13 Don't people see me? Light & Love

Michelle Mcdermin June 14, 2009 at 11:37 AM I feel that even down here, not being use to people. But you just have to find, and be comfortable being who you are and you'll find people that like you for it.