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If Only!

If only I could work up the courage to say,
the thoughts that go through my mind every single day.

If only one person could understand how I feel,
they would know that to me my thoughts seem so real.

If only I could face the world with no fear,
I will believe that my suicide is no longer near.

If only I would have been a better mother and wife,
I wouldn't of had to go this far and finally end my life.

                           Colleen Marie Bono

Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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Date: 12/3/2009 12:17:00 PM
repentance it the thing that makes better mothers and wives. jumping out a window is retreating, quiting, refusing. not paying. is there a period behind the words bad mother and bad wife or can the meaning be changed?
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Date: 11/24/2009 11:03:00 AM
thsi is great i feel like this sometimes to
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Date: 11/22/2009 6:11:00 PM
A very well written dark poem . this style inwhigh you wiriteisgreatand powerful
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Date: 11/17/2009 3:25:00 PM
Writing is healing and as a reminder we are all our own worst critic. We often judge ourselves even more harshly than we judge others in our lives.You express emotion so well in your writing.
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Date: 11/13/2009 4:22:00 PM
I bet you have a big heart just hang in there keep writing. Im going to add you as a favorite poet do the same for me please I really love your poem they are so full of emotion
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Date: 10/20/2009 7:49:00 AM
Thank you for presenting your wonderful poetry to us today. It was an enjoyable read for me. Thank you Colleen. Love, Carol
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