If I Die Tonight
If I die tonight
Who will realize that I am gone?
If I part from the only world I know
Who will hear my dying song?
When I choose to take that jump
Off of the ledge that leads to eternity
Will I be satisfied with my decision
Such a heavy choice of finality
When I throw down all of my pills
And pray to the spirits for an end
What will lie beyond the void
When my suicide note is the last thing I send
If I die tonight
Will anybody mourn my loss?
Or will there be only silence
As my body is covered with moss
Will they think about me with anger?
For taking the only way I could see
Forever to be unforgiven
In the timeline of eternity
Or perhaps they will be glad I am gone
A nuisance, a problem finally solved
The way I see myself in my head
Where all my thoughts eventually devolve
If I die tonight
Would my afterlife be stained with tears?
Rivers of blood from the hearts I broke
The tugging of regret always to be near
But all I can do is look through a glass window
And spectate the world I left behind
I can scream, but they'll never hear me again
Begging to the reaper that I could press rewind
Or would I be consumed entirely?
In an infinite abyss of black nothingness
Where I neither see, nor feel, nor hear
Returning to stardust, complete emptiness
But I will never find out the truth
If it is full of darkness or light
I will never know the answer
Until I die tonight
Copyright © Harmony Lane | Year Posted 2023
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