If I Die Tonight

If I die tonight Who will realize that I am gone? If I part from the only world I know Who will hear my dying song? When I choose to take that jump Off of the ledge that leads to eternity Will I be satisfied with my decision Such a heavy choice of finality When I throw down all of my pills And pray to the spirits for an end What will lie beyond the void When my suicide note is the last thing I send If I die tonight Will anybody mourn my loss? Or will there be only silence As my body is covered with moss Will they think about me with anger? For taking the only way I could see Forever to be unforgiven In the timeline of eternity Or perhaps they will be glad I am gone A nuisance, a problem finally solved The way I see myself in my head Where all my thoughts eventually devolve If I die tonight Would my afterlife be stained with tears? Rivers of blood from the hearts I broke The tugging of regret always to be near But all I can do is look through a glass window And spectate the world I left behind I can scream, but they'll never hear me again Begging to the reaper that I could press rewind Or would I be consumed entirely? In an infinite abyss of black nothingness Where I neither see, nor feel, nor hear Returning to stardust, complete emptiness But I will never find out the truth If it is full of darkness or light I will never know the answer Until I die tonight