I'D Never Be Home

Desperately I try and ignore it - but it causes so much dread The flashbacks and memories of the lies crammed in my head I don't understand why anyone would lie about love so long Effectively breaking and shattering our every single bond If you had intent from the beginning to crash all my emotions Then why'd you speak of marriage and a family with fake devotion? The evil and strategized game you chose early on to play with me Occurred 'cause you refused to hear anything I told you - no belief From day one you made the mistake thinking I was like the bad eggs For 7.5 years blood, sweat, and tears happened day after day Over and over you chose flawlessly to betray me and break my trust You've wrecked 7.5 years so effortlessly for a small tiny taste of lust There seems like there's nothing left of us - can't you see? Because of false self-esteem and insecurities - you chose to punish me Since the very first day, I've never seen us on the same page Your words they cut and burn - they poison and they ricochet You led me on many years making me think we'd be together - but we're alone Yet you could've told me earlier that no matter what - I'd never be your home