I Wonder

Lying in bed wondering what's going to happen next, I want to know if I'm going to be alone, or if I'm going to have someone by my side telling me they love me and don't want to loose me. I'm wondering if I'm going to have my baby with me till the day we die. I want to know if she really loves me. I'm wondering if she's been playing me all along. I can't stand the pain, I don't know what to do. My heart aches, My life is nothing without her by my side. My love to her is an never ending story, I can't explain anything into words. Sometimes I wonder if I was just a joke to her. Lying here in bed wondering if my life is real or just a movie. I wonder if all the guys and girls I've dated actually feel for me, or were just sorry for me. If you find this and can't find me, That's because I'm no longer here. I got tired of being hurtby everyone I dated. SO I took my life so I wouldn't wonder about things any more