I Wonder (Page No. 2)

You know somethingJesus, You really have a sense of humor. Hear I am living in The Salvation Army Harbor Light Recovery Center. I have no beginning and no family, ex-drug user and dealer. Then You got me singing in one of the most prestiges hospital probably Globally. Jesus, not only that you have me encompass around some extremely adorable women and men who are absolutely professionals in every since of the word. I must be professional in order to effectively communicate with them. Jesus, you allowed what happen to my beloveth kiemona and Angelo to happen. Had You not allowed it to happen I know I would'nt be in this situation. I just don't understand what You are doing in my life. Is it more humiliation for me, because its evident that I don't fit in with these professional people. You've allowed me to be a free-spirit ever since l989. So now I need to become a professional when I never even had the training to be such. I am only making it, because I know right from wrong, but beyond that I am ttotally lost in this professional world. I don't know who to trust in that world. Then I hurt someone that I think highly of feeling, because I only know being a free-spirit(speaking what I feel or just being myself). I did'nt know being myself is uncomfortable for her. Jesus you have to help me walk in this arena if its Your Will for me. I just can't do this without you. If I had my way You know I'd be in another state by now. You keep sending me (psalms46:10) so I just be still, because I don't wonna disobey You anymore, because I Love You More Then This Sweet Breath Of Life. I Wonder, Jesus?