I wish I could say something

My mouth won't say the words in my heart. My lips are too soft to say what is in my heart The heart is filled with a lit of emotions. My soul is covered with a dark cloud While my tears filling my eyes. I wish I could say something. The wrath in me is compared to nothing. Blood is turned blue and circulating anymore. I don't even believe I will see tomorrow. I can't even talk to myself. I wish I could say something. I wish I could say something. My heart prefers to speak to my mind. My body is loosing a sense of feeling. I remember this, I was here before yet I couldn't survive the night. My body is weak and numb. My words won't express how the heart feels and the mind can not tell what is right. My words needs tears to be understood better and expression of crying is nothing compared to what I'm going through. Nothing interests me like being alone because my heart can tell my mind how it feels. I go silent when something upsets me or hurts me. I hoped that this never came to me again but nothing likes to visit my world like a dark cloud. My happiness seem to be a threat but my sadness is everything that keeps me going. I've lost hope in happiness because it doesn't lasts long. My anger and my emotions takes me to a place which once existed in my life. I wish I could say something. What's the point of saying it no one will understand me. I wish I could say something!!!