I Wasnt Good Enough For Me

I was falling ,falling into the gushing rivers, My eyes stared looking above to the heavens knowing that "This is it", My goodbye to the world to everything I knew ,Life,Love,Hate. Everything! Evil pushed me to the edge,The edge of my own Annihilation Consumed me like that of Poison from a Scorpion, I couldn't think,I couldn't feel, All I ever wanted was to be happy, Was that t much to ask for? I sat outside on a bench one eerie and cold evening.. I asked myself "why me?" Why did I have to hurt this way? Why did I feel like I didn't belong? I couldn't find my purpose,that calling we all waited and yearn for our entire lives I didn't feel like anyone loved me ,appreciated me . It all "sucked",it really did. I had a plan the only way out. Out from this "Hell" called my life, I found a safe zone ,the only place I knew I could be free Somewhere I can fulfill My dreams, I starting walking ,walking on the grassy wet path to this place called Dante's River. I looked down at the gushy waters far belong, The strong cold wind swayed me a little, I climb on the ledge holding the ledge, A new life awaits me,as i looked down One free of despair and pain. I closed my eyes as I felt the tears trickled down , A sense of fear overcame me, "I had to !" I said to myself , It was the only way, I let go of the rope, I felt myself falling ,falling.. From the life I once knew, My eyes forever closed from my reality, Reality which I could no longer bare, My Heart and Soul was weak to much of a burden I had to bare, But I felt at peace ,Peace from it all that caused this insanity.