I Was Too Scared To Love

In the beginning of my teen years, I really didn't trust to love when you can't trust your parent to love you how can you think of someone else giving you that privilege, why would they if your mom and dad didn't want to be around you or stay so you get tough and you depend on yourself you learn to take all the punches below the belt until you learn that it can't just be that guy after guy can't be lying and sometimes a couple of them will cry when the tell you they love you straight from their heart and they don't want to leave you and never to part but should you really let them in what would it mean to your life if you if you got hurt again could your heart take it, is it a trick, can it be? are they telling the truth, meaning these things sincerely? I let my guard down once and for all and I loved back and it felt so good and I had a ball he told me he loved me over and over we'd lay in the grass and roll in the clover we even go married was this all a dream would I regret this, it sure didn't seem like it would ever die and I wouldn't lie maybe it is true I'm still with this fool 28 yrs later and it is still strong where are you God you did it all the days long my days are still happy being with him he is my first love and will always win this heart that couldn't love cause I wouldn't let it now what would I do if I didn't see fit thank you the makers be for letting me trust which wasn't easy he has my heart, my soul God you always told me so