I Want You

How many times can you have your heart ripped out of your chest is a question I ponder day in and day out everytime I think of you I say "I am glad you are doing fine" but in reality I wannna say "I want you to cry in agony every night" I want you to feel like I feel with pain so heavy its excruciating to your heart and you don't know if you can survive another moment I want you to pray on your knees to God asking him why and begging for release from your pain But in the end I want you to be happy no matter how much I am in pain because of you... because I am not the kind of person who would wish this kind of heartbreak on anyone too much compassion and care even for those who hurt me and who I hate one day my emotions and my heart are going to be my ending demise