I Want To...

I want to achieve at something and not be degraded. I want to change my life because I'm sick of jail. I want to love so many people, I mean true godly love. I want to stay alive long enough to see my kids grow. I want to remain sober so I won't put other lives at risk. I want to actually be free of the devil and all his way's. I want to awake out of darkness for the sparkling of thy sun. I want to have a future with you Lovie, I love you forever. I want to improve in my education, I know its the key. I want to be a father to my kids, I let them down enough. I want to be as wise as the men who walked with our Lord. I want to be forgiven of my sins and live righteously. I want to be able to tell my great-grandparents I miss'em so. I want to erase all the worries I brought upon my mother, I love you so. I want to be that person that's trusted and respected. I want to never have to cry again because of pain and guilt. I want to be able to dream again, come back dreams, please! I want to... I want to cry right now cause of how I feel inside. Everyday that passed has been a nightmare for the last 16 years. I want to go back to being that sweet adorable little kid with the brightest smile and maturity of a man, grown man. I want to, I know I do, I must and I will. Sincerely, Brandon Johnson Somebody Pray 4 Me