I Want

I am afraid of pain I am afraid of love I am afraid that life will cause me pain I am afraid that love will cause me to hurt I am even afraid that I will wake up without you by my side I am afraid of death I am afraid of life I am afraid that this life will kill me quickly I am afraid that from death I will have to hide I am even afraid of the thoughts that are on my mind I want to experience the pain I want to feel love I want to live my life I want to love unconditionally without hurt I even want to come along for the ride I want to laugh in the face of death I want to stand against the pain I want to ignore the hurt I want to trust enough to love And I want never to leave myself behind Most of all