I Used To

You know I used to think that I was the problem when it came to relationships I used to think I wasn't good enough didn't look good enough and I was the reason the females I was with was fallin in lust not love. I thought God was pullin the rug from underneath my feet but what I had to understand and realize is that I'm only human and yeah my heart stil bleeds Eternally, physically, mentally, and emotionally all I ever wanted was someone to actually love me but in all actuality it was my heart that was going to be a homicidal casualty. You see I'm blessed with a gift & a curse to love & to hate but I too make mistakes God gave me the option he put before me life & death curses & blessings he told me to choose and even though he already knew the decision I was going to make I heard my guardian angel telling me the only fate is the one you make. So it's only with the power that God gives me that I speak and spitt so poetically and the one thing I'll never forget is he was the one that never left me so with this lyrical testament I give all honor and praise to God that he chose to bless me. THANK YOU!