I Told You

I told you that you were a ray of sunshine, In my endless supply of cloudy days. I told you that I cared for you, In that ocean of violent waves. I told you that I carried you, Through that frigid, cold harbor. I told you that I hated you, Over the field of melted lava. I told you that I wanted to marry you, Across that field of yellow flowers. I told you that I lied to you, Outside this raging fire. I told you that we would be together, But that's simply not the truth. For life does just the opposite, And makes me sit alone in this booth. I told you that I needed you, When I wasn't doing well. Now I truly need you, Since I'm in this depressive spell. I love you my dear, But you won't come tonight. So the gun forces me to choose... Was this decision right?