I Should Try Again

You wouldn’t look me in the eyes
Because you were afraid of me, reducing to lies
Betrayal begins to bleed out of your scars…you were the color of Mars 
You bit the bullet and you are shining bright like the midnight stars
Enraged, you told me to leave your sight
Tonight, I’m fighting the good fight
I got to believe in Him immensely to get through these hardships
Head in the clouds, I couldn’t get out of this trap of romance unless I kiss the lips
Of my desire…that is a scorching fire within me…
I should try again – I will not give up so easily
Problems are solved immediately 
The moment I put it in God’s hands
When will I truly be set free?
He’s the only one that understands
Regrets flood my mind, but I must unwind for a little while longer
I don’t mind being the loner…feeling slightly unsure…
Maybe, I need Your Word to shelter me every night and day
Maybe is an understatement – I need His Word 100% of the time – that’s just the way it is…everything’s gonna be okay…
I’m bewildered because you left me without a trace of grace
I’m flustered because I feel rejected – I’m too fearful to say it in your face
I have boldness sometimes, but you should understand
That I should try again – to forgive and sit down on God’s right hand
I see light at the end of the tunnel and I build up motivation by running with my might…
Passionately, I embrace you, for I adore the little things you do – can’t help, but think of you tonight
I smell like I’ve just came out of a sewage in the streets of Obsolete Misery
How I long to be free; alas, I am stuck in the debris of my worthless fantasy
I should try again – I should just forget about your shadows that are entangled with my own
I should try again – I should just shatter away all of your reflections that is engrained into my own
I should just let you know that I’m growing weary…
In a way, “I love you” is overused…and I need more proof that you love me 
Sorry for playing hard to get…I still want you to stay
Just stay away from my dark side – that side is full of envy, hopelessness, and rage…I’ve gone cray-cray without you near my side for so long – I long to belong…I pray that I’ll survive another day without you…I’ve been led astray by past disarray 
I should try again to give you another chance
I’ve encountered yet another circumstance – 
Wishing all this pain and tribulation I’m dealing with will leave my side
I want You to abide by my side at all times – life is one complicated, up-and-down ride
Don’t worry about a thing – I pray for everyone to be well,
Though I feel that my heart is pounding in my chest
I fell into the hole of confusion and fiction like Alice did…wonderin’ why I fell in love so deep with you…yet, I’ve been taught that it is wrong – oh well, sh! please don’t tell!
I’m trying my best to spend my time with Him – never forgetting about the rest
Once again, 
I should try again…
To prove that my bravery is making me stronger than I realize…
To prove that my hopefulness is making me more loyal and faithful to God Most High
I’m not alone when I’m on my own – I finally noticed before my eyes
I’m not a failure that’s for certain! You’re my delight day and night I can’t deny…and I’m not telling a black or white lie…
Nothing makes sense to me anymore…sorry, my heart’s sore
My love towards you is as tall as the length from floor to sky
Let’s work together as a team – what are you waiting for?
There’s so much more in store for you – that’s absolutely true to the core
Let my wings of flight soar…
I’ll keep waiting for you patiently…you are my blazing summer star… 
I need more and more self-control…there’s more mysteries to uncover and more landscapes to explore 
I should try again to tell you that you’re perfect just the way you are

Copyright © | Year Posted 2016



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