I Never Consciously Wanted to Die

I never consciously ever ever wanted to die But one time during a car wreck I knew I was going to die I was traveling eighty-six miles an hour on gravel. Came to a t-road and knew there was no way to make the curve. I yelled “thank you God for a great life!” right before my car slammed into an embankment. I expected to look down and see my broken bleeding body. But I was still in it. I had the weirdest feeling ever. I recognized it as this – I was disappointed that I had not died. This shocked me. It was a totally unexpected feeling. When I ponder this feeling I know where it came from. Part of my, the soul part, knows that whatever is waiting for me after death Is much better than being here.