I Needed You

Sometimes I blamed myself for you leaving. Daddies little girl, didn’t think I needed you. You brought my daddy so much pain, I watched his tears fall like rain. Another guy one after another, now I think about it, how dare I called you mother. But it made me wonder did you really love me? I needed you, a mother to protect me and guide me. I needed you, to teach me to be a lady. I needed you, to help me control my struggles. 16, I made up in my mind you were no longer a part of me. Temptations tore me up inside. Almost lost my temple to the hurt and pain of you not being here. No one knows my tears. Had younger siblings who needed me, I’m there but I needed you yet you turned away from me. I needed you, a mother figure to lead me I needed you, a lady to teach me to love the world. I needed you, an angel to stop me from making the wrong decisions. 24, I fall to my knee’s begging for you. Cried for you to come back to me. But you were still the same…. Someone who didn’t need me and didn’t care if I needed you. I felt I couldn’t plan my wedding without you. I felt I needed you for support when I brought my first car and house. I needed you, to help me bring out the lady in me I needed you, to show me the right way to go. I needed you, to support me growing up. But you made it clear, you didn’t want me…