I Loved You, I Love Me More

I used to love you More than I loved myself But our love took a dark turn I cared for you, lied for you Even stood in front of a bullet I would have died for you Without a second thought See, There's grave danger in putting someone else before you Because it means you always take the backseat My wants, my needs Were put on freeze So that I could live to please You You found yourself overwhelmed Because no other female Ever poured such tender, love and affection into you Our relationship took a dive too deep And you became fearful of a future That you did not want or need You wanted to be free Instead of being tied down to me So, You found solace In experimentation You had a fixation With trying something new, someone different So you suggested that we just be friends But instead, You toyed with my emotions And continued to flirt with the idea of a future with me I soon learned, It was all just manipulation Just a tease So you could invest in other females While keeping a tight leash on me You should have let me be But you could not exist in this world Knowing that another man was doing the job You were supposed to do So you denied the truth Instead of saying goodbye You lied, Forced me to cry myself to sleep at night Only to be drawn in by your power again And again And again Until you threw dirt on me For the last time Your tongue uttered the last lie And I was done The monster I became because I was engulfed by this misery Put me to shame So consumed by this life I treated my own life, my heart, my emotions Like It was a game But I had nothing to Gain Except the inability to recognize myself in the mirror Now that he is gone I can see myself a lot clearer And I stand to proclaim Yes, I loved him With all of my heart But now that I finally put me first I can part with the past And love me Alas