I Kill Me With Kindness

Fill my cup- out of reach, I cover up, corrupted by kindness and sensitivity. Tread on me-feet of debris, ask of me, you will receive. Delivered in sweetness, dripping with meekness, I play Twister around your needs like a tangled sheep and I ask you what you want, But all I really mean is- I want to put me first, but how? I dont know how. To begin is to allow self centeredness. I live to serve, to fulfill your dreams while mine remain undreampt, unkempt, disheveled, overspent. Kindness-this double edged sword. Think Im killing two birds with one stone, In reality- Im running from reality, from my reality with your reality. I never face reality. Never being real, actually. Sacrificed my life, but in my mind at least I made yours better. What a coward Ive made of myself. Strive to balance this world of kindness, with Purpose.