I Just Can'T Win

And 
WHY ARE YOU TALKING TO ME???
The pity…
I can’t stand the pity in your beautiful eyes.

If I could tear out my heart
I’d hold my hand over yours as you fight in
vain to keep the vessels from erupting.

WHY ARE YOU HERE WITH ME???
Can’t you see I’ll drag you down with me?
I believe in love, it’s true,
but I’m ninety percent introverted. I can’t let 
anyone into my personal space. Especially you.
I just can’t do it.

I refuse to compromise and yet I’m surrounded
by impunity.
I dare not submit in the face of patriarchy
I spit on book knowledge in a society that glorifies ‘diplomas’
My arthritic bones laugh at me whenever I 
start a new exercise regime
My mouth craves sugar and my
heart spasms in the wake of cholesterol
My eyes shoot daggers at you as my
hand charms you with poetry. And yet…

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??
The back of my head aches and I drown myself
in cheap pain killers and back door laxatives.
I mean, what am I to do when I can’t afford a brain
scan and my family is lounging in poverty?

Lately I find myself forgetting things, mixing words,
Misspeling phrasis… But I’m a writer…
Aaargh!!! Why is this happening to me?
WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOW???
Stay away from me, my love, my precious.
I don’t want you near me when I self-destruct.
Can’t you see??? …I just can’t win…
Copyright © | Year Posted 2012

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Makama Avatar
December 17, 2015 at 4:26 AM
lines with curves of wisdom and landscapes of awe! My mind is in a park of joy to how I manage selecting this page. Keep on writing dear poet and as always, a wonderful 7 without a doubt!
Lamoureux Avatar
August 6, 2014 at 7:55 AM
This is well expressed, I can relate on many levels, I too am an introvert but live in an extrovert arena. Somehow I have carved out a niche. I need lots of alone time to recharge.
A   Avatar
February 2, 2013 at 4:17 PM
Vicky, a beautiful blessings with your creative top featured poem of the week. Take care and have yourself an excellent day... I know I sure am. :-) or should I say I will at least try. Always~ & ~ Forever*LINDA
O'Leary Avatar
January 30, 2013 at 5:17 AM
Another very well written, expressive poem, Vicky!! 'Introversion' as well as society's cruelties 'presented'... Terry
Mason Avatar
October 13, 2012 at 7:57 PM
your writing is superb. very painful. warm thought, Ralph
Wright Avatar
August 13, 2012 at 1:54 PM
Well written.
Pepino Avatar
July 13, 2012 at 2:37 PM
wow really great poem!
Scott Avatar
July 12, 2012 at 11:56 AM
I like how you capture the moment in thought very good introspection thankyou for your coment on mine poem x david scott
A   Avatar
July 7, 2012 at 10:24 PM
Vicky, congratulations In Joe's contest. Nice to see this contest finally up ;-) Good night PD
Johnson-Saunders Avatar
July 4, 2012 at 12:57 PM
An excellent, emotive write, Vicky! Congrats on your win. Love and Blessings, Rhonda
Arowolo Avatar
July 3, 2012 at 6:02 PM
Wow!Wonderful and awesome piece,Vicky.You captured my heart with this write.Great job.I love your dexterity....Keep it up.Congratulations on your HM.
Brown Avatar
July 3, 2012 at 1:09 PM
Congratulations on your win in the "I Just Can't Win" contest Vicky. Love, Carol
Harrington Avatar
July 3, 2012 at 12:53 PM
Congrats on an awesome write, what a heartbreaking struggle. Love to you! Tanya
Williams Avatar
July 3, 2012 at 1:34 AM
Vicky congrats on your win...David
Taylor Avatar
July 2, 2012 at 8:21 PM
Congrats, Vicky. Outstanding. Nice going. Kudos. hugs, Ralph
Johnson Avatar
July 2, 2012 at 5:39 PM
Great fun in your words. But now you know you can win. congratulations. Love, Joyce
Dietrich Avatar
June 24, 2012 at 5:57 PM
oh, wait. I GET it now. Was it Joe who did a contest called "I Just Can't Win?" NOW it makes SENSE.
Dietrich Avatar
June 24, 2012 at 5:56 PM
My gosh, Vicky what is this all about?? Gosh, you have me very worried if this is truly describing your own condition!! I want to know the "inside scoop" on this one and why it is for Joe!! (is this all symbolic??)
Andresen Avatar
May 23, 2012 at 12:04 PM
A strong poem Visky, well written. - Wish you luck in love and contest. - oxox Anne-Lise
Ink-U-Script Avatar
May 17, 2012 at 9:01 AM
I agree with Willams!! Wow..enjoyed!!
Palmer Avatar
May 17, 2012 at 9:01 AM
DEEP,SO DEEP
Palmer Avatar
May 17, 2012 at 9:01 AM
DEEP,SO DEEP
Williams Avatar
May 17, 2012 at 8:26 AM
Wow That is all i can say.
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