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I Have To Forgive You

-to my mom... inspired by Nathan Fehr-

I have to forgive you
For what you have done
For what you didn’t do
For leaving me in gloom
Leaving us all wondering
If you would ever return
I have to forgive you
Because you can smile away everything
Because we need you
And love you
Sometimes I know 
That you would have stayed
If it weren’t for God’s intervention
You would have stayed with him
If you hadn’t been thrown out
And abandoned
We were your last resort
I understand
I do
But that doesn’t mean I am not hurt
I forgive you
For the worst and for the best
We are blessed
To have you back
Though we will never truly understand
What made you leave us all behind
I guess you really loved him
The loveless … I understand
You wanted to make someone happy
You wanted to fill that empty void
But by doing so
Others had to suffer
But you didn’t want us to suffer
You were just tired of it
Tired of doing everything
We were your last resort
We were abandoned
And you returned
With open arms
And tears of bitter sweetness
I have come to forgive you
Because if I don’t
There you will go again
Freed skyline pigeon
And I love you
So much
Please don't leave us
Let your wings rest

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James Marshall Goff Date: 9/1/2012 6:29:00 PM Whoosh! Great emotion, Laura! Bravo! Jimbo Login to Reply

Robert Pettit Date: 8/31/2012 6:14:00 PM Reading this reminded me a bit of the film "Flowers in the Attic". Good descriptiveness here. Login to Reply Laura Breidenthal Date: 8/31/2012 10:46:00 PM I've never seen this film. -I will have to check it out! Thanks so much for reading and supporting! Always, Laura

Andrea Dietrich Date: 8/31/2012 8:20:00 AM wow, what a heartfelt poem. I just love the way you said "freed skyline pigeon. . . let your wings rest." Login to Reply Laura Breidenthal Date: 8/31/2012 6:39:00 PM Thank you, Andrea. :)

Justin Bordner Date: 8/30/2012 2:29:00 PM This beautiful honesty reminds me how the Craft of poetry can be magicly healing, cathartic - " Let your wings rest..." lovely Laura! J.A.B. % Login to Reply Laura Breidenthal Date: 8/30/2012 5:38:00 PM Cathartic. I love that word. Thanks for the unremitting kindness and praise. Appreciate it. ~Laura

Anne-Lise Andresen Date: 8/30/2012 2:02:00 PM A mother should never go from their children even in the animal world they do not. (At least not in favor of a new man) You have a big heart Laura. A moving written poem - well written! oxox // Anne-Lise :) Login to Reply Laura Breidenthal Date: 8/30/2012 5:37:00 PM Thanks Anne. My mother is wonderful, and I'm sure she regrets it deep down. I just gottah press forward. I say, it's not easy. Take care and thanks for reading. :)~Laura

Dan Kearley Date: 8/30/2012 1:14:00 PM This poem reminds me of one of my mothers...The one that left me when I was 3or4...I talked to her one more time in my life before she died.She sounded like a sweet person? I would have written her your words of beauty here if I could have.But at the time I didn't know I was a poet? Words of beauty Laura...Such a mean look in that avatar? Ha,ha :o[ Login to Reply Laura Breidenthal Date: 8/30/2012 4:48:00 PM Am I really mean looking!? I must change eet! O_O Thanks Dan for sharing that with me. It's comforting.