I Gave Up

Giving up heaven to embrace hell Perhaps I could have learned to love him with time He took care of me and I never doubted his motives I was the one in control I knew he would love me forever But for all the life in me I could not return that love I left the safety of the familiar to wander into the unknown Here I question every action and word uttered He controls me now and I’m helpless against it I’m terrified he’ll move on and I’ll be left alone and broken Shattered and exposed Naked and alienated I gave up a constant for an inconsistency I gave up power for complete submission But at least in this hell I’ll love for a moment Even when that love isn’t returned