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I Found Him

Poem: I found him, a true love story
Poet: Shanice Xaba

I found him
Right when I thought my life was over
Right when I thought my days were just getting colder
he then came and gave me a shoulder, a shoulder that I could cry on, a shoulder that I could lean on
He because my all right when I was about to fall
Never have I thought I could find someone like him in a world so small.

I found him and I love him
I love the way he always makes me smile
the way he always makes me laugh and some how I thought that
this was all just a lie, we had our ups and downs and moved pass them but I guess my heart never really forgave him.

You see he then started treating me like I was nothing, made me be beleive that I will never be anything, 
God then blessed us with a son, sadly the man that I love rejected him, he called me names and I never objected that
We spoke and I lied to myself and thought that I had forgave him and then now 1 year down the line he came back to his senses, amended things 
and thought that I would forget all his offenses towards me, but hey I still loved him so I went back.

I found him and I broke him
I made the worst decision by going back with a broken heart, going back with a tarnished mind,
See I tried to be kind but every time we had arguments they just take me back to that time, that time when he neglected and chose to be with her
that time when he swore at me and never wanted me near, that time when he rejected my son and told me he wasn't his, and then I started bursting out in tears, I swear I could feel my fears coming back and the anger crawling in and then it all took over me somehow I found it hard to breathe then I thought hey no this can't be me.

I found him and I hurt him
I took it out on him every time, I bashed him and that's when I saw that loving him was a crime, a crime that I am willing to pay for, a crime that I am willing to be punished for because I love him and there's no way I am letting him go.

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Michelle Morris Date: 4/19/2023 4:50:00 PM A heartbreaking and moving poem. I completely understand how you feel. Love can often break us. Let's remember that the light shines from within our souls and we can be healed again. Stay blessed and take care. :-) Login to Reply Shanice Xaba Date: 4/19/2023 11:38:00 PM Thank you so much Michelle, I just hope that I finally heal from all of this.