"i Feel Like Hanging Myself"!!!!

The dreams began again, they just wont go away. He is on top of me, more aggressive, everyday. Twenty years ago, you would think I would forget. The dreams come back, so soon depressions sets. Every year the same the voices come back to talk. They surround me everywhere I walk. How do I explain my birthday is not happy it brings the past again. Sixteen years old, a razor my only friend. The nightmares remind me why I wanted to go away. You never forget, even when pray. "I just want to hang myself" to stop the voices inside. Please God help me before I commit suicide. I am contemplating, I have no where to turn to. Please God help me, I am scared Ill see it threw. I just want this thought to go away. Could you send an angel my way. Other things are on my mind as well. But, right now is not the time to tell.