I Dread the Time

The older I get the more I start to see. And I began to feel that death is near. And it's getting closer and closer. Every time I wake up its in fear. I am only thirty-three years old. And I have already lost plenty. From family members to friends. Every day I see the names of many. I can't seem to get this off my mind. I am making myself become scared. Scared to live a normal safe life. Just because I've lost people I cared. For, It's coming way to dang fast. I'm not ready to leave to place. Nor am I ready for my family to leave. I dread those tears to run on my face. This has to be my big fear so far. How does one prepare for that day. All I know is death is going to happen. I am now lost on what else to say....!!