I Don'T Know Myself
I stuck my finger into the flame
Just to see if it would burn
For years I accepted all the blame
Watching my fortunes turn
Meticulous in every endeavor
I always aimed to be the very best
Deep down I always felt clever
But I'm not if the truth must be confessed
And I don't know who I am anymore
My face has become something of a mirror
Reflecting faces within I abhor
My agony just a little clearer
I've battled sadness and pain
And some days are better than others
But on my heart is still a stain
Which I'd clean if I had my druthers
I'll filled notebooks and FaceBook
With memes and ridiculous rhymes
But at the same time I'm a crook
Living my life on borrowed time
For one year I gleaned clarity
From every day and I made myself better
But even my patience isn't a charity
And deep inside I'm just a fretter
If life is just a big masquerade ball
I'm tired of the dance and want to remove my mask
Because I'm broken by the fall
But life continues to take me to task
I don't know myself anymore
Nor the man who survived the fire
But I'm tired of waging a war
When I peer in the mirror and see a liar
Copyright © Christopher Goss | Year Posted 2018
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