I Don'T Know How To Love
She wants good morning texts, but at that time I'm ready to say good night
She needs affection and cuddles, but I get scared and refuse to let people close to me
I refuse to apologise for being the way I am, I'm just not ready for this emotionally
I know I love you, I just don't know how to love you right
This picture isn't pretty, I'm sorry for the state of it
a history of heartbreak and failed relationships
Any time love came my way I didn't know what to make of it
I found the exit room as soon as I could, thinking I didn't have a place in it
I let go of people I didn't want to leave
I dream of giving what you need
But right now I'm not ready or capable
I always thought I was gods gift, until my ex showed me I was easily replaceable
I've paid for my mistakes now I don't have any worth in me
I've been playing the field so of course I have dirt on me
I've got some growing up to do, I need to stop going to clubs
Partying and drinking every weekend isn't going to help me in love
I'm stronger than I show, but right now I'm not ready for love mentally
But we'll end up together in the end if we're meant to be
I know you'll hate me and I accept that you'll judge
But I'd rather be honest about this and tell you I love you, I just don't know how to love
Copyright © Alex Duffy | Year Posted 2018
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