I Don'T Even Know Anymore

Sometimes I wish I could just leave you, But you say what you say to make me stay. What we had in the beginning was so sweet, So unique and I wouldn't give it up for the world. Now I'm afraid to tell you anything because, It all just ends up being my fault. I've tried to tell you how I feel again and again, But now no words come out, Because I have no clue what to say to you. You say to me that you want guidance and advice, But you never listen to a damn thing I say so why listen now? You beg me to stay when all I want to do is leave, And clear my mind because I don't even know who I am anymore. All I do is what you say because if I don't you get upset at me, And then I get upset because you don't pay attention to me, And all I want is your attention and love. You don't even trust me you say. I've never even given you a reason not to trust me, And I'm so tired of being ridiculed for the things I do. I've never cheated on you, And I'm not going to. Sometimes I wonder if It's even worth it to be with you anymore. God knows that I've contemplated ending it so many times this past month. I think what's happening is that we learned things from each other, And we've learned all there is to know from this relationship. I know you love me, But only half of me loves you anymore.