I Cannot Scream

I need to scream. In rage, frustration and hatred. In grief, despair and blackness. There is no hope and little good in me. My soul nothing but a dissappointment. I feel no hope, no future, no no path forward that does not end a full stop. No ellipsis here. I need to let it out. All of the negative. All of the bad before it can poison the little good left. I need to scream. But someone will hear. A scream to throw back the darkness A scream to let in a little light. But someone will hear and seek to know why. And that will invite the darkness back in like a lost friend. I need to scream.