I can only imagin

I can only imagine the marriage of life From youthfull marriage to the end of life But I cannot see what was not meant for me one by my side No one else to see Children made by her and me some like her others like me The making of choices Of what they may be The ageing together the problems we'll flee the undying love and sometimes disgrace The finding of peace after all the mistakes Knowing our future without force of fate Stay where you are no matter the stakes Beside them in a car were ever it takes Fighting with voices that forces and makes listening to lies our jealosy at stake Going to bed without a word where silence speaks loudly and suspisions are heard Ever the endurance the constanct reasurance It's forever and a day Just as they say I wish my life to be this way somehow I escaped to a different day Looking back I wonder why For all these women I was willing to die It's what they call A polygamous life Where all I loved Made one wife Yet today I wonder still Is the past the life I lived Was marriage ever the thing I'd give The ones I loved and love them still